Questions

Why do everything i write seems contrived and fake?
Why am i so indifferent to the escalating pressures around me?
I slept through most of the weekend, drifting in and out of a restless sleep punctuated by vivid and intense dreams. I dimly remember the details of Freud’s pscyhoanalysis theory, and i try to note and remember [...]

Read Full Post »

A short update - the hours don’t tally! no matter how i count and count, and count and count, the hours don’t add up – there is just not enough time to do everything. One can naturally assume that i’ll be stressed the fuck out of my mind, and busy as a fucking hyperactive bee on ecstacy, but ask [...]

Read Full Post »

Fickle

Today was such a beautiful day. It was a sunny, clear day with no trace of the haze in the bright blue sky, with little fluffy clouds and a soft breeze.
What a shame i had to spend the whole day in the studio.
That as may be, stormclouds gathered in the afternoon and turned the whole [...]

Read Full Post »

Whiny

I’ve been bitten by the festive bug. I refuse to put in more then 3/4 hours of work each day. Considering at this point in the semester i should be putting in like 20 hours of work a day, i’m horribly lagging behind.
I stay at home the whole bloody day, keeping thoughts of lemang and rendang [...]

Read Full Post »

Rempits

Shumacher has retired! i didnt watch, but on all accounts it was a thrilling race.
Today i brought a guy from Johor to the Menara HP in Jalan Gelanggang. Sitting in his car, the epitome of safe and careful driving, i feel that us KL drivers have alot to answer for :p Then again, last i [...]

Read Full Post »

Now i remember why things happened the way they did

I don’t know if certain people are reading, but i don’t care. Readership of this blog has dropped dramatically, which surprisingly is just fine to me cos now i feel liberated and can say whatever i damn well please compared to previously when i had no idea where all the hits were coming from. For now, [...]

Read Full Post »

Mad people from Pahang

The rain of the past few days, particularly the giant storm two days back that impeded my progress as i tried to make my way to Ampang to try supposedly cheap Korean BBQ but ended up paying hella alot for a few pieces of meat and cheap korean liquor with an unintelligible name and tasted like cheap vodka after which we went [...]

Read Full Post »

Rhetoric

I sat under the bright lights of the petrol station, in the darkness of my car. Listening to Cheryl’s iPod and the sounds of Blue October’s hate me. She found it disturbing; i found it depressing.
Just make a smile come back – and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered – “how [...]

Read Full Post »

Is there nothing left for me?

Aiyah. I don’t feel like writing anything. I’m not sure how long this will last.. I feel like i’m detached from everything at the moment – everything again seems so surreal. BUt i can’t put it into words as yet – i feel like a few months ago; where i can’t think. That time was [...]

Read Full Post »

Dreary

The streets outside are filled with haze and smoke. I feel that way too.
A quarter of my life is over, i am still indecisive.
I’m in a dreary mood.

Read Full Post »

Friday the 13th

This week seemed like two days. I lost track of the time – time doesn’t fly, it winks in and out of existence -
Today was a long day; early in the morning i was tricked into attending a design workshop by Flora. I was in class, trying to figure out what lecturer was going on [...]

Read Full Post »

Week #13

The class was making a big hoo-haa about going to Singapore next week to see Frank Gehry, but all that commotion ran out when it was discovered that all student tickets were sold out. What a bummer, i was looking forward to the trip, even if for all the wrong reasons. :( His new hotel [...]

Read Full Post »

Shot

Aiyah sien la. I want to get out of this.
Really tired of all the endless effort.
I feel so culturally deprived.
Troubles continues to happen in teh world.
Say bye bye to the old youtube.
The end of semester is coming up!
Time for some hedonistic fun.
I think, i will put up some pictures, eventually, soon, because everyone complains there is [...]

Read Full Post »

WD

I get majorly depressed whenever i do my working drawings. First and foremost is because i majorly suck at anything that involves drawing detailed and precise stuff. This, i think, is because i spent hours a day drawing nonsense as a kid and none of that involved rulers. And also because i skipped the technical [...]

Read Full Post »

Architecture must burn

I saw Mo Qing, the guy from Hunan or something-or-other province in China, lugging two bags these evening as i was leaving college. Eh, why do Hotel Management students get fully subsidized trips all the time, like the one he is on now, two whole bloody freakin weeks at France, while we pay thru the [...]

Read Full Post »

Oh look

North Korea has gone ahead and done it; let’s sit back and watch the resulting show.

Read Full Post »

Soul-Searching

My entire psyche is reaching new levels. Lower levels.
Things move so deceptively fast. My mind can’t keep up. It selects which matters to remember – and which matters to forget.
But some things, you can’t forget. And if you try you’ll pay for it.
I started this blog as a kind of experiment, to try to find out what [...]

Read Full Post »

Wow this is the first time i’ve gotten so drunk. Cans and cans of Skol do not mix with glasses and glasses of Bacardi. Always, always, always remember that. I puked like 3 times. gosh. no poetry tonight, ‘m too sleepoyu to think. mayube will think of something when im tryin to sleep. night.

Read Full Post »

Autumn

Mooncake festivals was a big deal to me back when i was a kid. I’ll be playing ball (some kind of ball) in the evening in the field opposite my house, come back for dinner, and head back there immediately after. When i was younger we lighted lanterns and played with candles and ate mooncakes [...]

Read Full Post »

The Departed

zomg i can’t wait for The Departed to show………………….. i bet it’ll be fuckin great.
The Departed The Departed The Departed!!
Yesterday i saw miami vice, it really blows. what a stupid movie. Most of the recent comedies have more action then a supposed “action thriller”. gah (!&#*(! what a waste of money.

Read Full Post »

Our beloved nation

I was quite (pleasantly) surprised to see 30dayartist splashed all over the pages of the StarTwo pullout yesterday. I first heard about the site a few months ago just before the deadline of my last semester’s final project, courtesy of a link from a friend. I ended up spending almost 2 hours reading it, thus putting [...]

Read Full Post »

Got my watch

after 3 months of unnecessary wheeling and dealing
i finally got my watch back!
boy did it take them a looong time to fix a little tiny nothing
nevermind, it looks as good as new now, cheers!
tired, can’t think. need sleep, bye.
Stefanie Sun’s version of sometimes love just ain’t enough pwns the original one.
The Vines now currently sit [...]

Read Full Post »

Patterns

Today, while thinking about Christopher Alexander’s The Pattern Language and his opinion that the current maladjusted condition of our society can be traced back to the four-wheeled box called a car and the rise of the high-rise condominiums, pun not intended, i came across a ghastly sight.
It was on the new (new being relative; it’s [...]

Read Full Post »

Have i bitten off more then i could chew?

How’s the previous post for drunken poetry part II?. Wrote that after a night spent in the company of a certain Scot, a Russian, and a few um, big cats, sweetened with some orange juice. I think it was mostly the mix of so many things that made me so sleepy, which effects kicked in about [...]

Read Full Post »

Gone

From the cacophony of voices i singled one out.
From the millions of faces i selected one out.
From the multitudes of wild jarring dreams i picked one out.
The one with her.
Through the streams and crowds of people i pursued her
Through the dark skies and thick clouds i chased her
Through spinning days and crazy nights i followed her
and stayed on track.
Sometimes [...]

Read Full Post »